I’ve never really considered blogging, especially for the hell of doing so. However with some encouragements from dear friends, I’ve decided to hop on the bandwagon. I don’t have a specific purpose or “theme” to do this. I just want to share or write my thoughts publicly. I thought summer would be the perfect time to start without distractions and stress from school, which is often my reason to pushing off any projects.
I’m someone with many thoughts and curiosities. Sometimes I find myself too passive and over ambitious, great combination right? Sometimes I’m an extreme introvert where I simply don’t want to interact with anyone else but myself, strangers are an exception. On the other hand, I can be an extrovert where I don’t want to do anything without the company of others. Currently, I’m where I want to be alone to enjoy my time off and the great weather in San Diego. I don’t want anyone else’s opinion and comments interrupting my thoughts at the moment. I’m enjoying the time to look outside and just blankly stare at the people walking by and not being concerned of anyone or anything else around me. That’s the current state that I’m in.
I should probably add some background to this narrative: I’m an undergraduate student studying history at a university in San Diego, California. I hate just saying “history” because it’s too complicated to be simplified in that way. To be technical, I’m specializing European history. I enjoy the modern time period, almost anything post WWI. The relevance and influence of our past to the present is just too fascinating for me not to learn about. I think one of the most interesting things I’ve learned that was able to help me build my own opinion of the present was socialism and communism. *gasp* I won’t go into details of my personal views because I still think I don’t know enough to eloquently present a detailed perspective.
I’m also someone who wants to do a million things at the same time. My friends like to say that I go through “phases”. As much as I hate to admit it, I agree with them. However, my phases aren’t something that simply come and go for the sake of it. I enjoy something as much as I can during that time and learn whatever there is to learn from it then move on. I’m sure many people are like this. My current “obsessions”/ interests/ phase/ focus/ any other synonyms is getting the hell out of America.
I’ve always dreamt about going to Spain and perfecting my Spanish since high school, but it was forgotten as I directed my energy towards other things the past couple years. Perhaps it’s the fact that I’m making more friends who are from Europe and I’m dating a French native who is well traveled and cultured. I don’t think I can say that I value culture when I haven’t been outside of California since I was 10. I embrace and love learning of different cultures but I think it’s only appropriate for me to experience it first hand. My internet tabs have been filled with traveling abroad and how to do so on a budget. I definitely need to take the advantage of my age and the little responsibilities I have at the moment. If not now, when?
On that note, I want to share a quote that stuck out at me while I was rereading The Little Prince, “One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes.”